I kind of always start arguments. It's bad that I'm impatient and rash and blunt. When there's a problem, I want it solved immediately, or I'll feel "itchy". I don't think before I talk, and that's really bad too. I mean, there is a reason for my getting angry, I don't get angry over nothing. My timing is bad though, I don't know how to exercise patience.
About the most recent argument, I felt really tired. What was most tiring? First was obviously being angry. Second was not being able to talk to you, the restraint I had to have in order to not whatsapp. And then getting fiery rage.
Today, I was unsure of what to expect when I met you. I was angry, still, but relieved that you didn't not come. So in the end must act cool a bit. Anyway. Then, you showed your playful side by smearing my mouth with cheese fries and omg I was really relieved. Then yeah you dropped mash potato onto me. Hmm. Yeah, I was alternating between pissed-offed-ness and relief, and then yeah. On the bus, your usual act cute style, and I realised, I can't stay angry at you. I can't stay angry at someone who makes my heart melt. Han na very mushy la. Anyway yeah but still must act cool ma. So went to search the entire Orchard Road for my friend's present.. you were really helpful honestly cause I never felt so tired shopping before. Literally walking back and forth from shopping centre to shopping centre, almost died. First time felt so anxious while shopping -_- Yeah. Then someone, walk into Fossil, look at this necklace, ask me, "What about this?" And I said, "Yeah it's very nice but she doesn't really wear necklace". Turned my back for awhile and next thing I saw you were at the cashier. I thought you were looking at the watch display some more. Walked to the front of the shop, turned back to look at you and the cashier was returning you your card. Was so shocked, hello what could you have bought within 5 seconds of walking into the shop?!?!!? 吓死我. And you said it was for me and I couldn't stop repeating "What could you have bought within 5 seconds of walking into the shop?!?!", irritating, I know. But yeah, imagine my shock when you asked me to open the bag and I saw, THAT necklace. I didn't even want to take it out. And then you said the nicest thing, "It's cause I dirtied your necklace just now" like hello, the necklace cost like <$10??? Must you do this?? And then you said the sweetest thing, and I think I needed to hear it, *shall not write it here*. And yeah basically my heart just melted huh. I think this makes me materialistic. :/ Or at least to a certain degree materialistic. :/ But I'm grateful that you are able to put in the effort to make me feel better. Your words mean a lot. Plus you spent the whole day with me shopping for girl's stuff hahaha and I got tired faster than you omg.
Thank you beebs. I must learn patience more quickly.. Next time just ask me to breathe, and just say something that'll make me feel better can? Don't need spend money one.. :/
I can't stay angry with someone whom by just being around, makes me happy