Sinking

Today was a good day. It was a hot day too. But anyway. I'm sad to say the information is finally sinking in. When we were walking and talking I almost cried, so I walked a little slower than you so you wouldn't see me tearing. But yes, the information is sinking in. I'm really quite at a loss. I don't know how I should feel. I don't know how I should react. But I will try to be strong. You should know beforehand that I would cry that day. I'm sorry if I embarrass you by doing that. It's not like you're going to prison. I don't know. It just seems sad. After so long of being together suddenly you're on a mandatory separation - only one day rendezvous are allowed. I won't be a mood killer. I won't be all depressed and all these few days. I will save that for my bed and my pillow. Goodnight my love.