It goes both ways. One person doesn't give in all the time. Take and forget and take

And while you're saying what I did wrong, there you are doing the exact same thing, thinking I don't know what's going on. I really don't know why I bother. Why I go through all the shit feelings by myself, cause I made a promise not to talk to anyone. Why I cry, cause no one sees it but me. Why I put in so much effort. If you don't give a shit. If you think I'm blind or deaf or dumb, think again. When I'm quiet it may not be because I have nothing to say, it's cause I'm observing. So many things you think you do subtly, guess what. I notice. I freaking notice. Okay? You think I'm not hurt by all this? That's cause i pretend not to notice, pretend not to hear. What pisses me off the most, what gets me straight in the gut - that stinging feeling where I tell myself SHOULD HAVE SEEN THAT COMING - is you when you use what I say against me, and then, then, the whole cycle starts again. What you do is just say things. Say things to make me feel guilty. Then do nothing to address what I said or why I said it. Enough, please. Enough. If you value my sanity, keep your promises.

Words words words take take take forget forget forget