Abraham Maslow's hierarchy of needs:
Whether or not you're a proponent of Maslow's theory, I find this interesting. If you look closely at the pyramid, you'll see that sex and sexual intimacy are separated by the level of "safety". Sex is also on a lower level than sexual intimacy, which suggests that it is a more basic need. Though basic needs are germane for our general well-being, more often then not we would seek for more complex and higher levels of satisfaction in order to achieve higher levels of motivation. Motivation for what though? For living? It seems like this motivation goes in a circle. First, we would have motivation to fulfill our basic needs. Then after fulfilling these needs, we would have the motivation to achieve more complex needs.

Sadly, of course, not everyone can achieve self-actualisation in this lifetime. I personally don't think that I'd ever achieve self-actualisation, though, perhaps, some of the needs are and have been fulfilled occasionally. I do believe, though, that personal well-being is important. Personal reflection, personal sanity, personal happiness. How often are all three achieved at the same time? Does this mean that to be happy, you have to be, not literally, insane? This is all so confusing.

On another separate topic, I really never thought that a song could affect me so much. Whenever I listen (to that particular song), I think about my life and how rather meaningless it is. Why I am being held back by laws (governed by __)? Why am I doing something that I don't want to do (study study study my life away) but because everyone is doing it I have to do it too? Hello isn't this peer pressure too. Why am I tied down by everyone? I'm not saying commitment is not good, in fact, it's an amazing thing to do for people you love and personally I commit myself to the people I love. But I'm not at everyone's beck and call. (Please don't ask me for help like I owe you something and then expect me to accommodate your every order). Then I think about this particular line in another song (Back to December by Taylor Swift): Turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you/ Wishing I'd realised what I had when you were mine. Yes and I realise (and am very very thankful for) I have an extremely blessed life. Quoting Jacq,


On a much more random note, there is pus coming out from my toe and it hurts so bad I can't even walk. :'(