I honestly have no idea what I am doing with my life. What am I doing in school? I shouldn’t even be in university. I don’t believe that academia will get me everywhere. I don’t believe in studying. I believe in happiness. I don’t believe that academics can make me happy. Though happiness may not be the key to survival in the monetary sense, I still believe it is more important to do something that brings you happiness instead of torturing yourself by doing something that you don’t like. I think the only reasons I’m still studying is 1. for my parents and 2. it is the norm. Seriously, whatever.

I feel like I’m in the eye of a hurricane. Everyone around me is moving so fast ahead and I can’t even escape from it. It’s made particularly worse because I’m alone because everyone around me believes in academia so strongly it has become a religion that they subscribe to without them knowing that they worship it.

Such bad times. Someone please hug me and tell me it's going to be alright.