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Life without colour

I am now dreading Chem lessons, they never fail to make me feel stupid and dumb and not smart and someone seems to hate me and likes to put me down. It's really, absolutely stupid to be so affected by this sort of thing till it makes you breakdown and cry IN SCHOOL, but I really just can't help it. Plus, today was such a chore to go through, because __. It was really a whirlpool of emotions, a rollercoaster ride of highs and lows. In the morning, during SD and Bio, was still feeling ok, cause Olivia was entertaining me. Then as it progressed to GP, was bored but still ok. Bio lecture was rather torturous, due to the close proximity of __. Then break, saw Brother by myself. He seems either in a good mood or actually really friendly. Anyway finally got the Interact proposal approved, so was feeling quite happy with myself. Then wow, Chem lecture was a waste of time, half the lecture was going through the blanks we've already gone through before, and it's not even like going through the difficulties, its just filling in the blanks. Next, during the break, asked someone a question, and he/ she puts me down. Never mind. Then don't teach me how to do. What the shit la, how is my Chem supposed to improve, you tell me?? At least I know I'm not the only one who finds his/ her teaching deplorable. So after that, was in a super duper bad mood already. Even overreacted towards Andrea. Sorry, Andrea. So was feeling really lethargic and irritated and sad and down. And this is the part where I cry. Last year, I made a promise to myself not to cry in school. Well, it has already been broken, WHATEVER. I hate that I can't control my tear glands. After that, JoJo made me laugh again, husband, you're the best!! I ♥ YOU but I know your heart is with KHC. Haha. Ok then throughout the day, I get stupid texts from irritating, irresponsible people. And oh, on top of all that, my stupid eyeball has been hurting since the morning. Wow, what a great day this has been. Sometimes, I really feel that I care too much for other people, and nobody cares for me. Life just became a little tougher.