Confounding

Today was a rather confusing and uncomfortable day.

Handwriting test taken from Olivia (Julia):

Sandra has difficulty making decisions. Her mind changes constantly. She lives in an emotional tug of war. Sandra could be described like a thermometer. Today warm and friendly, yet tomorrow she may be distant and cold, not wanting to be close to anyone.

Some research indicates that people with a severe variety in the slant of their handwriting have an inability to tolerate sugar and are suffering the side-effects of too much sugar in their diet. If moods swings are a reoccurring issue, investigate the diet.

If Sandra encounters a situation she cannot handle she frequently pulls into herself. She feels her emotions are secure if she is withdrawn. When she has solved the problem she can be very outgoing and again need other people's companionship. Some see Sandra as very moody, but it it would be more accurate to say she has two complete personalities that she chooses depending on the circumstance. This type of person is often hard to understand because no one knows what personality she is exhibiting today. She may not be bothered by something one minute, then the next minute become upset at the same thing. It is very difficult to pin down Sandra's emotional expressiveness.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Sandra doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.
Sandra will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Sandra believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Sandra is not facing something going on in her life today. She is deceiving herself about it. Often, Sandra's opinion of herself is different than those around her. This trait gives Sandra the ability to deny anything that does not agree with her "truth." This trait is not always something negative. It is only a defense mechanism allowing Sandra not to face some reality in her life at this time.

In reference to Sandra's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Sandra slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Sandra can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Sandra's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Sandra that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Sandra also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Sandra is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Sandra's self-concept is artificially low. Sandra will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Sandra to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Sandra is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

Something is incomplete in Sandra's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Sandra's sexual needs.

From the faint baby bluish grey
To the faint unbleached yellow,
The sun set in a blinding yellow white,
The road disappearing into the distance.
The dazzling light shines through the trees;
an impressive silhouette forms.
The stunning yellow whiteness shocks me;
Leaving me disoriented.

It didn't rain.